As I’m writing this, I’m currently outstretched on a sun bed with the burning midday sun beating down on my back. My iPad is propped up in it’s keyboard case and I can just about read what I’m writing despite the glare of the sun and my reflection. It’s too hot for any kids to be out so I can finally hear myself think and collate my thoughts about what on earth is going on with my blog.
I think it has been quite evident on my blog recently that I have lost enthusiasm, lacked passion and been uninspired. Funnily enough for once, I can pin-point when this happened and it’s actually when I moved home from Oxford which is one thing I never expected. I thought that after graduating, I would have found a new love for blogging as I stepped into the world of becoming an adult. It was then when I discovered a little gem in my ‘Becoming An Adult‘ series which I thoroughly loved writing and creating. It was starting to develop my blog into something a little more than what the latest mascara on the market was or what I wore at the weekend. I still have a ton of those posts stacked up in my drafts folder but there’s just something stopping me from publishing them and I don’t know what it is. I know that when I find the urge to blog again that those posts are something I would really love to continue. We all have to go through that transitioning period where we go from the comfort of education or a gap year into our first proper job where we start saving for a flat or a car, whatever it may be. That is really something I’d love to cover on The Rawrdrobe.
It’s not hard to notice that I’m sick of the norm. Monthly favourites, yawn. Monthly hauls, sigh. And it’s not that I’m bored of reading them on other blogs because they are my favourite posts but I just can’t really see myself creating that content anymore. I really want to get into the nitty gritty! I want to talk about why I’ve quit drinking alcohol, why I’m trying to stop smoking, how hard it really is saving money, the struggle of a new job and blogging, all that ‘real’ stuff.
This post is just opening up really, I can’t blog for the sake of it anymore cause I’m losing myself and losing interest and that’s the last thing I want. I’ve also struggled with the balance of blogging and my new job. It’s so hard – how can people do both?! Hats off to all you ladies and gents for that! My evenings and weekends are consumed by freelance work so basically I just need to sort my shit out!
With that being said, I need to finish this blog post here with the promise that I will be back but I just need time. Also I think I’ve burnt my back so I need to get some more sun cream on and Toby needs some attention because he’s getting bored!
I hope what I’m saying is understandable and I’m sure many of you have been in this position before. I’d love to know how you get out of a blogging rut?